I used to check my LinkedIn profile at least once a week, scanning for updates and looking into connecting with people I might have good partnerships with. It was like an “adulting Facebook” sort of platform where people did not post their recent vacation photos, but their updated work status, certifications, training, awards, and projects.
It’s all good until I realized I missed putting a headline on my profile. The headline is what people see first when they view my profile. I can put in anything that I want, but usually, since this is a “professional” site, it is in my best interest to put my current position.
I thought long and hard about what to put here. Am I an anthropologist? Of course, no. I haven’t spent at least one decade on one field site to proudly say that I am. Am I a researcher? Sort of, but not really, because I also do writing and editing, and the term “researcher” usually connotes someone stuck in the office doing online research. Am I a writer? An absolute no. Everyone is a writer in their own way, and to say that I am one means I can assert that I could write for a living which, unfortunately, is not the case. I’m not good and if anything, I am only most comfortable with journal writing. Am I an editor? Sometimes, but I can only edit specific articles, and I absolutely do not have the confidence to proofread academic journal submissions.
Where am I good at, really?
I’m not very good with labels, and it’s hard for me to assert that “I am this and that.” Although I do apply anthropological, writing, editing, research, and entrepreneurial techniques on my work, I cannot say that I am this “-ist” or “-or” that can be that sort of authority in these fields. In reality, just like any of us is, I am forever a learner of this world who is constantly on the lookout for what, where, when, and from whom I can learn from. Therefore, I find it uncomfortable to force upon a single title when I know there is no appropriate title to write in the first place.
So, what did I place instead? Simple: Human Being. This is the most appropriate title that I could think of and sums up everything that I want to say about myself. I am no anthropology practitioner, writer, editor, or researcher. I know I am more than these titles, and to say that I am a “Human Being” was the most comfortable thing that I did on this platform.
But why did I delete my profile?
As straightforward as my headline sounds, I deleted my profile because, simply, I find no use for my account any longer. Sure, I have contacts that I’ve built over the years, and I’ve put in a substantial amount of time and effort in completing my profile. But why must I insist on pushing my way into something that does not make sense anymore?
In the past, I used to feel bad about saying goodbye to things that I have started. It makes me feel worthless knowing that I haven’t followed through with my decisions. But I’ve realized that the reason why today is different from yesterday, and tomorrow is different from today and yesterday, is because the world allows us to think and feel as human beings. This opportunity to grow is what makes us evolve in a way that is full of resilience and free of hang-ups that can be hard to say goodbye to.
So, today, I don’t doubt myself anymore if I want to turn my back. I have found a different meaning to the word “closure,” and with my LinkedIn profile down, I again feel another baggage coming off my shoulders.