Turning 30 Tomorrow!

Last day in my 20s! Can’t believe I’m turning 30 tomorrow and with the best birthday gift of all! 🙂

This is the first time that I got to write on my journal again. As I write this I got Raia napping on the crib for the longest time so far. I miss holding her in my arms as I stare at her face or watch YouTube videos (LOL, guilty!). But I’ve realized that I have to help her learn how to continue sleeping on her own, although, of course, I still need to be here to help her doze off. She’s only five weeks in this world and still adjusting to life outside the womb.

What can I say about motherhood? Five weeks on, it still feels surreal. It’s true that everything changes, but how, I ask myself. I don’t know exactly how to explain it, but all I know is since the baby arrived, I’m still the same person in the same house, visiting the same rooms, eating the same foods, seeing the same old stuff, talking to the same people, yet everything feels different. It feels kind of eerie and surreal at the same time, knowing that I can never go back to how things used to be. This is my new “normal” now, that’s why as much as taking care of a newborn feels overwhelming, so does getting used to a life where I don’t have only myself to be responsible about.

Eating out with Raia-min

Eating out with R for the first time (and yes, she’s also eating!)

This is also the first time in five weeks where I felt like I don’t have the brain fog from epidural-assisted childbirth anymore, and I started thinking about myself again (that’s why I took the luxury of having a long hot shower this morning!). I was pleasantly surprised that, albeit slowly, it didn’t take that long for things to settle down. Days go by pretty quickly even though at this point, all that the baby does is eat, sleep, burp, poop, and do cutesy stuff with her face the little time in a day she’s awake. Time does fly by quickly when you enjoy the moment.

I thank showers, tooth brushing, face washing, cleaning and organizing that I get to sneak in whenever the baby’s asleep for helping me keep my ground on this rather overwhelming first-time mother newborn-rearing ride. These help me so much in keeping my focus and making me feel still in charge of my day. Funny, that what used to be everyday activities are now considered “mommy time.” How much things have changed in just five weeks!

I don’t know when I can write next but when I do, for sure it’s when I’ve got another “me time.” I’m sure there will be more of that in the coming months.

Bye for now from me and my Little Anthro on foot 🙂


“We Have a New Baby, Now What?!” Workshop

As a first-time mom, I have loads of questions on how I can best prepare myself for my new upcoming role in life. Although I get tips from many important women in my life, like from my mom, mom-in-law, grandmothers, and aunts, I still want some sort of structure on what I exactly have to do so I can minimize surprises due to my ignorance.

So, I signed up for the “We Have a New Baby, Now What?!” workshop offered by Pinay Doulas Collective, a group that provides emotional and physical support for pregnant women from birth to after-care. I’ve never really considered signing up for doula services not until I experienced a learning curve a few months ago that encouraged me to sign up for this support group.

Geared for first-time moms, this workshop is Part 2 of 2 sessions offered by the group; however, due to schedule conflicts, I had to attend Part 2 first. All sessions are scheduled on a Sunday.

Coverage of the workshop is as follows:

  • What to expect for the fourth trimester and first 1,000 days
  • Newborn appearance and newborn care
  • Physical development for a healthier baby
  • Brain development for a smarter baby
  • Delightful sleep for baby, mommy, and daddy
  • Care for the new mom (physical recovery, hormones, dealing with postpartum depression)
  • Planning for your birth, postpartum, and breastfeeding
  • Hands-on sessions on breastfeeding, infant bathing and massage, cloth diapering, and baby wearing.
Birthing Class-min

Trying out my new baby carrier. I fell in love with the fit, the colors, and all the hard work that went into making it! 

After the workshop, I bought a baby carrier handwoven by the group’s partner community in La Trinidad, Benguet. It’s the perfect fit amongst all the options I’ve tried and I’m glad to have found it here! I even won an anti-stretch mark cream, and got to bring home hypoallergenic detergents, baby bottle and dishwashing liquids, and talc-free powders courtesy of the group’s sponsors.

It’s a Sunday worth spending all my time and road travel for. I can definitely say that first-time moms should consider attending a workshop like this as it eases out the stress and worry (a bit!). There’s still so much to take in and I already acknowledge that I may make mistakes along the way, but at least I know that I am doing my best to empower myself.

I’d like to end this post with this powerful quote from Pinay Doulas Collective:

You are the author of your own birth story, and you have the power to write it beautifully.

Have a blessed Sunday everyone!