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My Pregnancy Journey

At exactly 6:40 AM every single day I wake up to the baby’s kicks. Throughout the day, I could feel him/her rolling around, switching between feeling happy, sad, peaceful, and as tired as me. I never thought that these little movements can mean so much: how these can make me feel so thankful for this gift of life, and how these can make me feel so humbled to be chosen as the carrier of this specific soul. It is such an amazing experience and I never thought that I could love this half-of-me so much– and I haven’t even held him/her just yet!

I am now on my 26th week and fatigue is, for the first time, taking over my day. I have been quite robust since the start of my pregnancy, saved from extreme morning sickness, mood swings, and cravings. Tuesday last week has actually been the very first time that I had extreme morning sickness and felt so sick that I threw up in our garden as I was preparing to leave home. To my surprise, my oldest dog, Kitty, hurriedly shuffled her way beside me and gazed at me all the while that I was throwing up. She was just staring at me all that time, and I felt her kindness and compassion, so pure and true, piercing through me– and all that, uttered without even a single word.

At that point, I felt all the more in love with Kitty. I had her when I was 18 as a birthday present from my Tito J. and Tita S., having just lost my dog just then. She’s been a witness to my ups and downs, and 11 years on, she is still here with me, supporting and loving me without question. I am really happy that she will also be a witness to seeing my mini me!

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Photo credit: tuanawebtasarim.com

I choose to keep the baby’s gender a surprise until my delivery, which I think is a nice way to welcome my first born! It can be quite difficult to contain the excitement given that the radiologist herself finds it hard to keep it a secret. But it is a promise she kept and will keep until late June, my expected date.

One thing that I’ve learned so far that stuck ever since I had this baby is the importance of a disciplined mind, and disciplined action. Knowing that another soul is dependent on me makes me want to focus on what’s important, address my thoughts as just thoughts, address my opinions as just opinions, understand my feelings as just feelings, and recognize chaos as just a play on my wisdom. I know that this baby is growing calmer because of these learnings as I am, too.

I’m thankful that the Universe has finally allowed me to go on this path set for me at its right time. Pregnancy is such a humbling experience, and I thank all the mothers, especially my own mother, for all the love and teachings passed on through generations across time and space. I’ve read somewhere that worldwide, four babies are born every second. While every mother’s experience is different, I wish that every mother’s journey  in every part of the world becomes a unifying factor to lift every woman up; not tear each other down.

Good night from me and my little Anthroonfoot 🙂

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Out for One Year!

I kept this blog on private since April 2018 since I knew I wouldn’t have the chance to update it as often as I want to, given that 2018 presented itself a whole new set of challenges for the almost-30 me. Also, the past few months gave me time to reflect as to why I should keep this blog since there are times where I question its existence and why I would want to devote time and energy into publishing publicly.

Years 2017-2018 are crucial points for me and R, given that it was during these years that we started to get serious with where we want to be in our relationship. We didn’t get to travel much and go out as much because we needed to save for our condo repayments, furniture, appliances, and future children (already one on the way now!!!). These years proved to be a transition period for us to go from boyfriend-girlfriend to building a family together. Work is part of the reason why I put this blog on hold for 2018; at the same time, I wanted to focus my energy on things that needed more of my attention during this time.

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A milestone for 2018: completing all furnishings of our first home for Baby R.

But after almost one year, I missed Anthroonfoot. I realized that apart from work, what also made things less exciting about this site was the fact that after seven years of blogging, I started to want to monetize from it. Instead of just focusing on journaling, I started to consider other factors like using SEO-friendly keywords and format, and networking so people would start to take notice of my blog. If I wanted my blog to become more popular, I was told that I should focus on writing based on what the audience would want to read; not on what I want to convey. It makes sense, given that “hot” topics are that– hot– until the steam goes off, so it is crucial to keep a topic calendar where I will write based on topics that are hot while they are hot. I was told that I should start steering away from my long narratives with details that will bore any reader. That I should start making lists and keeping my sentences short so people will keep on coming back.

But is that what I really want to happen with my blog?

I already know the answer to that question as I was writing the question. When I started blogging when I was in university, I kept my online journal on Multiply. That was 2011, and I only published four entries for that year. But looking back, do I feel bad about it? An absolute no, because I knew that those four times meant a lot to me, and I knew that there was nothing else that I wanted to share comfortably publicly.

Although I don’t get to monetize from this blog where I can definitely say I can leave my day job behind to keep this going, I get perks from it, too, which I took for granted when I chose to keep it private last year. I get discounts on hotel stays, I became a property scout on Booking.com, and I became a travel ambassador for Visit.org! More than any of these perks, I get to share my love for travel and living (big word) through this blog! Looking back at it now, I’ve appreciated all the more the value of this blog, how great of an outlet it is for an introvert like me to share bits and pieces of my life. Sharing helps in honing my skills in putting into words what I want to convey, for many times I am at a loss at what I want to say since I rarely ever speak up unless there’s a real need to.

I’m glad to be back, and now with a little one in tow. It’s amazing to think that I started blogging when I was still in university, and now, I’m still doing it with a little me to join the journey. Life is indeed full of surprises, and I’m always thankful for all the experiences this life has to offer. To me, every surprise is always for the best, after all.